Give yourself away

"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will grant you the desires of your heart!" Psalm 37:4

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Candyland Souls

Awe.

Such a small word to capture the depiction of such an overwhelming emotion. How can that even encapsulate the gravity of my reality. For I am in a permanent state of awe. To be blessed daily, ever daily is something to make you return to your astonished disposition. To hear the beautiful words of someone speak, "I'm praying for you. We're praying for you." 

Why then do we wait until an event arises to lift others up? Do we not have daily issues? Maybe we have friends who are fighting such a personal battle around them that they are being consumed with anger and hopelessness; yet they remain a stoic pillar on the outside. You smile and wave, they return the gesture. I am sending this message perhaps out to three people that are reading this to take arms and PRAY. This is an emergency.

You think not? There are people our neighbors, friends, our families who are hurting. These aren't just Candyland figurines to move around a game board, these are souls. Souls seeking. Souls aching. Souls stabbed but the mistakes they have made. Regrets, longings, what-ifs and how comes? Perhaps if only, Why.........WHY? 

I am not a scholar or a doctor. Not royalty or a celeb. But I have the answer those souls are seeking. They need Christ. We must show love. Christ didn't come for us to live a life that reflects how empty and meaningless this world is. We have a HOPE! 

God love you and the rest of the world, He created you! He created you to spend life enticed in his goodness.  He wanted us to be with him. But we ALL have sinned against God, we have all screwed up. The only way that we could be forgiven is by having something atone or replace our sins. A sacrifice. Nothing we could offer could be enough. Jesus gave his life being your enough. He is more than enough. He died on two wooden beams that made a cross. They nailed him to that cross, in my place....in your place. 3 days later though He rose from the dead. Catch that. He is ALIVE! We are merely asked to believe in Him and give our lives to Him. He gave you his life......why are you clinching yours?

I am in awe. Jesus did that. HE is my purpose. Without Him I would be nothing. Without His life I would be dead. We have the privilege to speak to our creator in prayer...

If you want to play Candyland move over. Your turn is done. There are souls thirsty for life, a Heavenly Father. If you need anything taken to God in prayer, please ask me. I consider it an honor to speak with my Lord on your behalf. I can't judge you, trust me. This broken vessel pieced together to form Kathy is full of shame, regret and chips of falling. But Christ is always there to pick us up. He is forgiving. He wants to hear from you. 

Pray.

Monday, March 28, 2011

He & HIM

You see me and yet look straight through me.
Never knowing my thoughts, truly
I cannot grasp the plans for my life
But I am accepting that they may be without you.

In the end that would be okay
Not a meaningless existence
My purpose is not defined by us
My purpose is defined by HIM

Who is HIM you ask?
Exactly. You cannot have me and not know HIM
He died for me
Without friend requesting me or poking me
I may not have him on facebook
But you'll find my name in HIS book

I am a filthy brokenness that has been saved
by nothing short of amazing  grace
I am the wretch the song refers to.

So Mr. Perfect you aren't my purpose
and you can't steal my heart.
It isn't mine to give.
I cannot live for you and seek Christ.
I cannot seek you and live for Christ.

So goodbye Charming,
I will have blessings in my life
Even if they are without you.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

My Monopoly Mind

Sitting on Go waiting for the dice to stop their toppling. Haven't collected any properties, money, or drawn my chance card. I know my turn is coming, soon. I mean we all grown up knowing you should not eat dirt, don't hit your brother and take turns right? Well my turn has to be coming!!

I've been oh so focused on where my roll will take me & how many spaces away I will have to jump, that I haven't truly thought about how amazing this state of waiting is. I will never again, NOT know where it is I will be headed. Never again will I have literally an entire world of possibilities to dream about. I have a pause while others are drawing and rolling, for when things get in motion, there is no stop. No pause. No ignorance.

So I am going to breathe, enjoy the gift of wonder. I think we take for granted how awesome wonder is. Think a second, when is the last time you anxiously awaited hearing something good? Looked forward to the possibility that "Today could be the day!" Well my weeks have been littered with wonder for the last month and a half. I take that back, honestly I've been awaiting this news since November, but knowing that "Today could be the day!..."since the start of last month.

So even though I haven't the slightest idea where I will end this year, I am thrilled that I started it with the people in my life that I have & that I know will always be there... (rawr ;) No, I can't make the promise that I will stop checking my email whenever the thought crosses my mind, but I will try to move my thimble when its my turn, and not eat dirt.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  -Jeremiah 29:11