So for quite awhile I was thinking that the guy that I am head over heels for is just not ready to be in a relationship with me yet...It's just not the right time...he has other things going on right now that are keeping us apart. BUT tonight while talking to a dear dear friend...I realized that the problem is more than likely myself!!
How on earth am I to hold this man responsible when I know good and well that my act is far from together. God is probably been trying to get this through my head but I have been too stubborn to hear it! How foolish. I need to try and get my act together and figure out what I want out of life, and what plans I might have down the road before even beginning to lay blame on Mr. Wonderful. Because think about it, if he is already such and amazing man for me as he is now...is he saying to himself well she is Miss Amazing...if I was him that would be a quick no. I am so imperfect and slathered with mistakes and faults (wow that's an unflattering way of saying it ha-ha).
I am just so very thankful for the friends that have been put in my life, and the love and support they give me daily. I am so richly blessed with friends and awesome family that I have no reason to be down. Whether a date ever comes out of this or not, I will have his friendship and all of our laughs together, and that has made my life all the more worth living. I wouldn't trade a second of it!
